Pretty morning sunrise run. Actually a much needed sunrise
#om I woke up stressed
out because my children are getting older and the Holidays potentially
will not look like this next year. So in my mind I started orchestrating
scenarios of what we will do, how it will look, how we can keep things
"Moran Clan" because I need my babies with me on the Holidays. Ok it's
now 5:30am I'm filled with anxiety over things and what I a
m
doing is not orchestrating but "controlling". You think I would have
learned 9.5 years ago when the life was almost knocked out of me that I
am never in control. I battled that for a long time and it was
horrible. The one thing I learned from that is even though I am not in
control is I always have a choice. I made a choice about that when I
decided to make the rest of my life the best of my life. I made a choice
when I decided to get healthy. I also make a choice each morning when I
open my eyes and thank God for giving me another day. So now I simply
need to remember I have another choice. To be present. To choose joy and
peace in my heart and let what will be , be. Because He has just made
my children more magnificent with every year. I have always told my
friends scared when their kids are going into College it just keeps
getting better because it has. I know that wherever the road leads it
will be ok and we will be together. So if I have to remind myself 100
times I will to just breathe and enjoy now.
